As many of you can tell from my blog’s tagline, I wanted to incorporate faith into this blog for a couple of reasons:
- I want to grow in my faith and become more faith driven and centered.
- I haven’t come across many blogs that incorporate lifestyle and have a faith component attached to it.
I realize religion and people’s beliefs and non-belief’s can cause friction from time to time but I want to put a disclaimer out there now and say that this blog is a safe place to talk about our religious beliefs and I never want my thoughts and views to offend anyone at anytime. If you suspect that you may feel some type of way about this post and other posts to come, I suggest you either don’t read them or don’t fancy this blog.
Phew! Now that that is out of the way, this post is going to be all about me (that sounds really narcissistic, huh?) and how I’ve gotten to the position that I’m at today in my faith. I am in no way finished with my journey, as I am in no way where I want to be, but this can be a good introductory post. Maybe down the line, in a couple of years or so, I can recreate this blog post and show my growth? Yeah, that would be cool.
So I’ll start with the basics. I’ve always been a church go-er. Not too much of a consistent church go-er but one, nevertheless. I’ve always remembered being in my Baptist church home that I’m in now with my immediate family at that time (me, my mom, and my dad) since forever. Our church home started in a small gymnasium and now has grown tremendously since we first started attending. My dad was always very involved with church. He went to bible studies, was an Usher, and connected with the members in the church. As for my mom and I, we weren’t too much involved. When I was younger my parents would try to get me to sing in the choir or go to children’s church but that never interested me and I was very shy. My family and friends would probably describe me as being the little girl who was “always in grown up’s business” but I always felt better being close to my parents and listening in to what they have to say (I was too grown, I’ll admit that now). Even though I wasn’t involved at my own church in Lewisville, TX I remember being involved much more at my grandparent’s church in Brownwood, TX during the summers (my cousins and I would spend our whole summer in Brownwood). During that time, we would go to Vacation Bible School, go to church almost every Sunday, and I faintly remember singing in the choir once or twice.
I can say that I’ve always been a believer and advocate of having some sort of faith and exercising that freedom whenever I please. I can’t think of a time where I didn’t believe or doubted in the Lord for more than 2 seconds. Even though this is the case, I still didn’t have the best relationship with Christ until my pre-adult/adult years. A turning point in my life and in my faith journey was definitely when I started college. Being in college brought out a different side of me that I hadn’t seen in a long time. My stress levels and ideas of being perfect (I’m a Virgo, we are designed this way) took over and I could get so down on myself so fast. My thoughts would shift to dark places and my depression would set in. Soon I realized that I had to start relying on God, praying, and giving him the time he deserved in order to feel at peace with myself. I started to put my worries and struggles onto him and took a step back and learned to RELAX. Once I started to do this I saw miracles start to happen. My grades were phenomenal, my life was poppin’, and I was prospering. I started to rely on daily devotionals and gospel music to inspire me and keep me grounded everyday (which I still do). All in all, I knew there was one thing that I needed to do and It weighed heavily on my mind for a year or so. I desperately needed to get Baptized to fill the void of not being able to enjoy the celebration in taking Holy Communion or to call myself a Baptized Christian Believer.
**For those of you who aren’t familiar with what a Baptism is, it is a religious practice in the Christian Church where you sprinkle water or immerge a person into water as a symbolism of purification and admission into the Christian Church. Baptism is a choice and not necessary for acceptance into the Pearly Gates of Heaven but highly encouraged at my church.
It was over a year before I thought I was ready enough (when I say “ready enough” I mean ready as in having a firm understanding of the Bible, what baptism means, and what it takes to be a good Christian) to get Baptized and on April 9th, 2017 I was officially baptized at my home church in Lewisville, TX. I wish I could accurately describe the feeling afterwards but it’s such a complicated feeling to interpret. I will say that it was definitely the start of something new in me and has since left me feeling even more impacted by the Lord and wanting to be better.
I don’t want you to think that being Baptized is the be-all and end-all. It was definitely a humbling experience but I recognize that it’s only one part of the many parts it takes to be a good Christian. I still read my daily devotionals and practice purposeful praying (I pray every night and I try to pray with a purpose, not about what I want but what I’m thankful for). I now feel bad if I miss church and still try to go even if I have to go by myself. I stay engaged and challenge myself to not glance at my phone throughout the service to see who’s on Snapchat (I know right). I try to understand the sermon and apply it to my daily life. I also try to see the good in people and forgive even when I feel like I can’t. As the list goes on and on, it’s really not just what I do but how I think. Many people can be doing what they’re suppose to do but not doing them for the right reasons or with the best intentions. I’ve recognized this and try to better myself.
It’s sometimes a struggle to balance the life we want to live with the life we actually live. I always say that my faith journey is just that, a journey, and will probably always be a journey. I am not perfect…WE are not perfect and we are going to make mistakes and we are going to sin (Thanks, Eve!). But it’s important to remember that God forgives us for this and knows our true intentions. As I get older and realize how incredibly blessed I am and I look at all of the blessings I have received (without asking) I can’t help but feel gratitude and love for God. We have all received such a glorious gift of life and I chose not to waste it or doubt it.
I hope to use this blog as a growth mechanism in my faith. Not only do I want inward growth but outward growth as well! I want to be able to share my experiences and miracles with an audience who can relate to it too. Using this platform, I hope to help someone else express their outward feelings about their faith and grow into something great! Personally, I want to become more involved in my church and serve in ways that God see’s fit and I pray for strength to be able to do it. I pray for a faithful and Christ-driven man to stroll along one day and for a faith filled family to follow! I pray for a good job that I love and that allows me to be the person I strive to be and I pray to be able to live my life the way I want to live it. My prayer list goes on and on but I know that just praying about it won’t make it happen. I HAVE TO DO RIGHT! A misconception that people fall into, including myself, is that if we pray for something long and hard enough, it’ll eventually happen. No. You can’t be out here thoting and bopping but “praying” and expecting all your prayers to be fulfilled (Like whet?). You have to live right and do right.
To wrap up this post, I want to share my favorite scripture from the Bible that has gotten me through some of the darkest times:
I hope you could relate to this post and enjoyed it!
Be Blessed –